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i was at my guys house dog sitting (2 little lap dogs). I let them into his backyard to potty and 4 of the neighbor’s 6 or 7 pit/terrier mixes decided to ram, chew and tear a huge hole into the fence trying to get at them… :-O  it was like a movie!

i got nervous after hearing the dogs start ramming the fence and the wood started cracking… i called my charges and only 1 came back to me! i put him away, went back outside and saw the majority of the neighbor’s dogs were now all engaged in growling, barking, loudly tearing the wood and pulling the panels off of the fence… i kept calling for dog#2, i grabbed an iron rod & tried to slow them down, that didn’t work, so i threw a tire infront of the hole the pits were tearing into the fence. Then i  ran around the house to find the shitzu pup…

on my way back to the back door (with the pup), i noticed the dogs had gained entry and were all trying to squeeze through the hole at the same time (but were tripping over the tire i’d thrown there, YESSS!!!!)….

i got us both back into the house moments before they came up barking, growling, jumping and ramming the door i’d just run through!

it was NUTS and action packed!

(i could have dived into the house w/ the pup stretched out before me w/ indiana jones music! that’s all i needed!!!)!    

and the neighbor’s response?????

he ignored me knocking at his door moments after the invasion… BF got home 3 hrs later, we both go over again, neighbor answers and says:

“it’s ok, my dogs aren’t aggressive, they just have a bad reputation because of their breed”

*my jaw dropped*

i like dogs, i don’t even hate these dogs! a couple are friendly to people, but aggressive towards most other dogs… i dislike irresponsible owners… what’s with the owner saying they’re not aggressive? can he not see the 3ft x 2ft hole they tore into the fence??? did he forget, they’ve torn holes into the fence on 4 separate occasions? that the piece of ply wood he throw up last night was torn down and the dogs were in our yard again this morning so we couldn’t let our dogs go piss in their own backyard? that they’d gotten into the backyard through his crappy patch work the previous night and came up the back door while we were eating and started jumping against it, scratching it up and growling at us??

oh! but back to my cardio??  mostly adrenaline and the short sprint around the house to find and return with the shitzu! :-)  i maybe burned .03 calories… whoo hoo!!

buuuuueller???????  (i’ve gotten a bit rusty blog wise so.. this may be a snoozer….. )

so…… jen types another blog.   (  <=  see that Rach??? huh? YOU SEE IT?  nNnyeah!   

weddings.

i’ve never dreamed of.. OH, wait… ok… so.. for those who are obsessed w/ proper capitalization and punctuation, i apologize in advance, the shift key is just… too much work… andsoisthespacebar,occasionally…

weddings.

u know how some women dream of weddingsand blahblah… i’ve never wanted a wedding, fancy-smancy dress, pretty coiffure, being the center of friggin’ attention!!!! all of that jazz. i’d be quite content hitting a drive-by chapel in the middle of the night, dress-casual and just gettig it over with….

and then, there’s jen’s boyfriend. he wants everything i’ve never wanted! he has the dreams of a 10yearold girl when it comes to weddings… he wants it to be big, to fly ppl in from all over, friggin’ white birds and fountains! just going all out! wth!?  (not to complain because he’s so cute when he talks about stuff like that)

so… anywho, i’m thinking, maybe ishould try to dump more weight so i don’t have to buy a size XXXL weddingdress, ya know, since weddings = pictures!? horrible, unforgiving, archive-able pictures!!!! and i don’t really want the wedding gown store ppl lying sayin git looks good when it doesn’t, and i want a real choice! a selectionof styles to choosefrom!not the tiny ‘plus size’ rack on the very end..

UNLESS! it’s a themed wedding! inwhich case, everyone wears footballgear :-)    or… we can do Ghostbusters wedding! i can be the Mrs. Stay Puft (i’m taller than he is) and he can be Peter!!! or star trek! or x-men! LOL… we’re justlike Kermit and Mrs. Piggy!!! (i’m making a mental note of that one for halloween)

mind u, we’re not engaged yet, he knows i will continue to say ‘no’ for the next fewl months…   (it’s all about the chase w/ him)   

so! i’m working out! dropping pounds… by this time next year, i MAY be trying on dresses….  lets see if looking good better for my man (who likes me as i am already and has NEVER asked me to change) and for wedding dresses will be a descent motivator…

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Hmm.. i’ve been bouncing between being 5lbs. and 3 lbs. short of my first 50lbs lost for the past (2) months.. what’s up with that!!!!? Last weekend, I took an impromptu roadtrip/vacation just to unwind and refocus.. i think it worked and i’ve gotten my momentum back!!! and no speeding tickets this time!!!

GAWD!!! i’m soOoo ready to do another build.. i lerv Habitat and AmeriCorps…

ok! i get to workout again tomorrow/Saturday (THANK GOOdNESS) i get so bored when i can’t go workout regularly…

so… i’m bummed out… i go to the store and buy ~$37 worth of delicious junkfood (fancy cookies, chips & queso, frozen stuff, weird cheeses, etc.). On my way home i have to pass a dojang a friend offered for me to workout in, so i decide to stop, but not to workout, just to use his ladies room (before i make the 40+ min drive to my home)…

I’m about to leave his biz when i start trying to convince myself to just do a workout while i’m there. i had the hardest time convincing myself to stay and workout… LOL.. it actually got pretty ugly! There was name calling! A few eff bombs were dropped! Threats! Disappointment! (   my negative self-talk is very lively and abusive).. but FINALLY after going back and forth in my mind for a good 7 minutes, i decide to stay and workout for 10min so my precious junk in the car wouldn’t thaw before i got home…

2-3 min later… I’m working out and I start to feel a little better… BUT! My pants are too big! they’re falling because i don’t have a belt! another excuse to stop working out! but No!, Rob has Ducttape!!!! (for the first time ever, wished i had a camera!) i ducttaped my pants up, laughed at the sight and kept exercising….

An hour later… the workout was descent, my spirits are much higher than they were earlier that day and I no longer want the junk food!… Now i set to thinking of someone i can give the food to because i just can’t waste food and i don’t think the store will take it back… my bottomless pit little brother? he loves free food and never gains weight! but… he wasn’t home… i try a couple more ppl and no one was at home! everyone was at work!

I’m stuck with the junk… i take the junk to my home… and Darnnit!!!! i eat some of it… then more! then i get bummed again for consuming junk, and now… pfft! well….. i don’t wanna weigh in this week!!

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How’s everyone doing today??

*random gym-related thoughts*

I’m toOOoo fat! I do not belong in a gym! Gyms are where almost-fit & fit ppl stay fit! I should be someplace else, grazing in a field swatting flies with my tail… Or jogging in the shadows at a quiet, low traffic, secret lake… Gym patrons will place bets on when the fat girl will quit and stop coming, or on how long before they have to call EMS for her… or laugh at how short her workout is, or at how fast she gets tired… I’ll trip and fall, I ALWAYS trip and stumble or something clumsy like that… or worse!  something freakish like uncontrollable flatulence while on the rowing machine!  Do gyms have mirrors everywhere? I don’t want to see my disgusting form! I couldn’t miss me! I know others can’t miss me either! I’m huge! Crap! I can’t “blend in”…

but i’m being irrational and paranoid… (or am I??)

Some of the fit ppl at the gym were possibly tubby at one point just like me! No one at a gym reEEeeally cares what the big girl in the back corner is doing do they?  They’re there to do their own workout, not to ridicule and judge the newb… And even if they did, so what? They don’t know me, I do not know them… I’ll never see them outside of the gym… And I’m changing myself! Working out! Not being just another “lazy fat person”…  How peculiar though, usually, when I’m ‘focused’ on something I’m not as timid. Why isn’t that true in the gym’s case? Maybe I can wear funny shirts each time I go! Or be emo and wear my hair over my face and speak to no one… Or just be me, stinkin’ friendly! Maybe I need a gym buddy!  I’ve never been that fond of being exhausted and sweaty in public, then again,  I have never been fond of being a fatty in public…  which am I the least fond of???

ehh… maybe i’ll venture into a gym after I lose 40more lbs… but I sure would lose 40 more lbs. faster if I used equipment at a GyYyYYyYm…

I’m such a pansy sometimes…

and by “THOSE” i mean ‘a desire to’… and by “people” i mean ‘kick him in the batteries’…

yesterday, as i sat in my vehicle at a stoplight on my way to work, i saw a sweaty guy jogging towards me on the sidewalk and i became JEALOUS of him!!!!! I wanted to jog too! burn calories! become drenched and reinvigorated! not go to work to sit in my office for 16hrs!!!

It’s been a little over a week since i’ve had time to exercise like i normally do due to a recent workload increase, staffing shortage and sadly the recent layoff of my assistants… I haven’t been able to squeeze at least an hour of exersice back into my days yet!That bites! The desire to workout is “surprisingly” still within me… and it’s somehow ended up intertwined w/ guilt if i miss workouts and i’m craving the “workout high” and this constant thought that i can be burning calories and looking less bovine-y! I’d be such and such weight by now if only i were working out! ugh! it soOoo nagging..  

the extent of my jonesing…. so! lately, i’ve been finding reasons to pick things up off of the floor under my desk, just so i can sneak in a pushup or two! little mini workouts, to tide me over till i score some real workout time…  i park in the farthest parking space from the building and find excuses to run back out to the car… i race my boss to the server room every chance i get… and we chair dance a lot! I just know, as time goes on, i’ll start getting more desperate and creative lol… actually, this could become pretty interesting…

*sigh* ok…. back to work..